“You are not a drop in the ocean, you are the entire ocean in a drop.”

-Rumi

I have woken up this morning feeling a little less than whole. I am experiencing pain from lower back spasms that has me somewhat immobilized. It’s not dissimilar to, though not as severe as, back spasms I experienced thirteen months ago. At that time I was left almost completely unable to walk. 

While I could go to the place of beating myself up and asking myriad questions about how I got to be here, it will only do as much good as looking at the little picture will ever do. Yet that is how we are socialized, to look at the little picture. Look at the symptom and try to fix the symptom. I am much more interested in the big picture. Looking at the big picture is looking to the cause, and addressing the cause.

On today’s journey toward the recognition of the cause of my current experience I ask myself the question, “What wants to happen here?” Then I listen… I really listen. I listen to what I hear with my ears, I listen to what I am thinking about what I hear, and I am listening for that greater intuitive voice. That third form of listening is the really the big picture listening.

I trust what comes up and act accordingly. For me, that is listening from wholeness, and it is in wholeness that I believe I am led to the course of action that heals.

Wholeness heals. That’s always been my experience.

So, off to the doctor I go… with my mind focused on wholeness.