What Happened?

I’ve been on a wild ride these last 72 hours. It started with leaving Kauaʻi on Saturday. It was a beautiful day and I was feeling quite grounded in resolve for taking the next steps in life. And I am still in this place of resolve. My sister (who had been on the sacred journey) and I decided that we needed to get out and move our bodies. We drove to Keālia Beach and set off on the walking path headed north. We were not even a half mile along when the rain came. Now, in Hawaii there is typically a pattern with rain, it comes and goes quickly. This time? Not so much.

We walked maybe a hundred yards before we decided that we had to turn back as the rain wasn’t passing. So we turned back and by the time we returned to the car we were soaked through and through.

Rain is a blessing on Hawaii, so it was not a bad thing by any stretch of the imagination. As I look back on it, I consider it a natural baptism of sorts taking me into the next steps of my life.

We returned to the house where we were staying and put our soaked clothes into the dryer, ate a little and packed our suitcases in preparation for our flight back to the mainland.

Cut to… Sunday morning. We had an uneventful flight and little sleep and I was back to work on Sunday morning at Global Truth Center. I work there as Assistant Minister in charge of Production and Marketing. The celebration was spectacular and spoke directly to my soul. Dr. James Mellon’s message, “I Am… The Voice!” asked us all to consider how we are showing up in the world, whose voice are we truly using and can we ensure we are using our own authentic voice and showing up in integrity in the world. This was preceded with a conversation between Rev. Nancy B. Berggren and Dr. James about the events in Hawaii (Rev Nancy was on the sacred journey with us). The ballistic missile scare was part of that conversation and hit me in a way that it hadn’t hit previously. It REALLY hit me. The emotion came to the surface, emotion that I can see now had been suppressed in the moment of the event. It was also emotion tied to the very questions that Dr. James would ask in the service.

What am I doing?

Am I speaking with my authentic voice?

How am I showing up in the world?

I was in tears. Everything came to the surface. Some have said I was experiencing PTSD, and maybe I was. I couldn’t easily control in the moment what was happening in my emotional state.

So this brings me to the readings from yesterday and today… beginning with Chapter 13 we delve into “Causes and Conditions.” What I’ve explained are the conditions of my experience. As a mental scientist it is my duty to explore the laboratory of my mind and seek out the causes that have led to these conditions. After all we deal ONLY in thought, for changing thought changes conditions.

All that I had experienced had its birth in my own mind. To address it I needed time to take a deep dive. That is why there is no podcast posted and today’s blog entry addresses two days worth of reading in the Science of Mind. I just needed to develop and determine my point of view around all that had unfolded.

Part of my challenge in doing this was to check in and see if I truly believed that I live in a perfect universe. Let’s face it, there are messages and experiences all around that could support an argument that I am not in a perfect universe. The ballistic missile scare was just a part of that. I mean, how can we live in a Universe where that is even a remote possibility. That possibility lost its remote-ness in my experience of it.

The truth is, it is all perfect and it is our relationship to the circumstances that bear the good tidings of life’s magnificent unfoldment. There was good in that false alarm. To uncover that good, that was my work.

I approached this with the deepest reflection of the Science of Mind philosophy, the basic premise upon which the entire philosophy hangs: Perfect God, Perfect Man, Perfect Being… Perfect God being Perfect Man, and Perfect Man being Perfect God.

There is no difference, you see. We only experience difference because we’ve decided to experience it. I think the unfoldment of my evolution will be forever informed by the experience of the missile mishap. I know how it has already changed my life for the better and I will post more about that as soon as I’ve worked out the details.

I live in the deepest understanding as I previously posted, in the words of the swami at the Kauaʻi Hindu Monastery, “If God is everywhere, and I am somewhere, then… there.” The fundamental truth and simplicity of these words will resonate with me for eternity. God is. I Am.

I begin to live paʻa ka waha. This roughly translates to: observe, be silent and learn (If words are exiting your mouth, wisdom cannot come in).

Mahalo nui loa, me ka aloha.